stomach still not right

I feel like no one can really understan what I am going through. I dread sleeping cause I know it will not be restful. I mean I want to sleep so bad in peace and not wake up to stomach ache and my limbs falling asleep on me. My old life seems so long ago. I watched my husband sleep this morning and I wonder what is he dreaming of. It must be so nice to surrender to the pillow and sheets and know you will wake up better for it. My only escape from this time has been compromised. Everyone keeps telling me it will get better but when....????? and how????. I have an appt with my head and neck doctor on sep 3. He will tell me if I can do the endoscopy based on my issues with breathing. Then they will do the endoscopy. My concern is that my voice has not healed completely because my vocal branch was cut. But my stomach is upset and it hurts. During the day I really do not feel hunger. I have a false sense of feeling full. The pain only gets worst when I lay down to sleep. If it's because of all the calcium I am taking I cannot stop. Parathyroids have not kicked in yet. Praying to God it gets better. I take calcium all day and it's not easy. I want to make peace with the changes I have had to make but it is real hard. My husband seems a little out of touch with me. He just wants to be outside. I do not blame him because all I do is cry and complain about my pain. I just do not know what to do anymore. I am tired, lonely and sad.