The book of Job

So a very good friend of mine has recommended I read the book of Job during thie time. Although I would not say she is the most spriritual person I am encouraged by her insintance and faith in my recovery. At first it seems too lenghthy and sad. Eventhough I have been sick and want to pull out my hair I pick up the Bible and read up on Job. What strikes me most is the human side of him. He genuinely is suffering and pleading with God for some relief as I am too. He also feels like no one understands his situation. Interestingly he also feels like people have pulled away and distance themselves from him. I too have felt very alone at times with my recovery. In part I know it's psychological. You can't help feeling alone when does around you try to understand but really can't because you alone are going through this. The other part is that during illness you get to know who your true friends and family are. I pray not to become bitter with does I considered my fam and friends and have "abandon" me. I pray my focus will be on being grateful for all the miracles on my behalf. I woke up with severe pain and nausea again. Today I did not cry I just prayed for strength. I know in my heart one day I will sleep an entire night and not be suffered or fear it. I will rest as peacefully as does around me. As God intended for me to do. I Believe.