Loving me

Right now feeling really bad about all that surrounds me. Fighting and sticking up for my self has not been easy but I feel I am slowly getting there. Am I wrong for the way I feel? Lately feeling angry about everyone and everything. Can't fight being sick and being sick and no sleep as well as being surrounded by people that I no longer can tell if they have my best interest at heart. I need to find me. I need not to give up on this situation or body that says to. No one knows the torture of this pain. I sometimes feel like I am going insane. No test, No doctor can figure this out. What happened to me on that table. I wish the surgery could have been recorded and I could comb the film to see what went wrong. I know he knows and I will never know. God let the truth come out so I can have some peace of mind!!

Apple cider vinegar

O.k so I woke up stiff as a board. Lord this is not easy to live with but I guess right now I have no choice. So I am going to try a couple of things to see what else I can do to try to "ease" this pain. I read Apple Cider Vinegar helps with aches and pains. So a couple of days ago I went to GNC and bought a bottle of Bragg's Apple Cider vinegar( which they say is the best). There are like a million things you can use it for. Now once it becomes a "cure all" or "fix all" claim even I become dubious. At the same time I say heck I only lose 3.50 on it so why not. So since Monday I have been drinking it.


Recipe:

Bragg's apple cider vinegar( you can get this GNC, whole foods etc)

1 Tablespoon of Braggs apple cider vinegar to 8oz water. 1xday.
note some people drink this 3xday. I however want to start out slow.

So far the first time it was kindda bitter so the following day I added honey tasted a little better. The third day I added cranberry juice much better. In terms of pain I did feel a decrease of chest ache and I was able to sleep a little more and move around in bed after I wake up with less stiffness. I don't think it is going to cure me but so far maybe it will be an addition to. I also have not increase the dosage to 3x a day so we shall see. I also want to try acupuncture and I am def looking into that. The other thing that has helped my stomach immensely is Kefir but that will be left for another entry. I am a bit tired right now so. That's all she wrote :)