Trying so hard

I am trying to eat gluten free and it is not easy. I have started with what I call 80-20 which means that I eat 80 percent clean and cheat 20 percent. I have to do the biopsy and in order for the biopsy to come back posititve I have to have some gluten in my system. The problem is that I have not scheduled the biopsy and I am still eating some gluten which obviously can't be good for my body. I think it is more complicated than that but it is late and I don't have the energy to go into all the details. Anyway I feel I have been doing real good. I have almost completely cut out bread from my life and Pizza. I still don't find it easy resisting Pizza but I am getting better at it. I used to think I can't live without having a slice of Pizza a day but I am getting better at it which is so hard to believe. I never thought I would say buy steamed broccoli and chicken and actually like it. I honestly am amazed at how I am food shopping. Only good stuff goes in the shopping cart and I don't feel too deprived. I am really proud of myself. I have had to go on this journey and figure out a lot on my own. I have stayed up many nights doing research, soul searching and more research. To some it may not look like a lot but I have radically changed my life. I am now doing more exercise and it has been a challenge because of my vocal cord paralysis which makes breathing labored and very hard. But even in this department I have made a dent. I never really have been a positive person and making the decision to make an effort to see the good in life despite feeling sick has been my greatest challenge and that has changed for the better. I have some hope which I have not had in a long while and it feels so good. Better than winning any lottery. I want my health back and I will do everything in my power to be the best I can be. Cancer Can kiss My diminishing A..... LOL!!!!!