Just Blue

Just saw a movie called "Julie and Julia" and it inspired me to start blogging. The movie is based on a true story about a woman who decides to blog. Her blog is based on a challenge she made for herself. She loves to cook and decided that she would make a recipe everyday for a year from a cookbook by Julia Childs. I loved the movie. However unlike Julia I do not love to cook. I definitely prefer to eat out. I find cookbooks tedious and cooking messy. I enjoy other crafts but that is not one of them. I can however understand the feeling of enjoying something made by your hands and the gratification of sharing it with loved ones and close friends. So my first entry sounds hopeful. That is not my reason for blogging.

However my motivation for blogging has nothing to do with cooking or crafts. It's about my struggle with depression. Frankly sadness has always been with me for most of my life. Just in different "shades". I know that I can only share my sadness with only so many people without being judged. I have struggled depression for a long time and I truthfully understand the torment of being " in the closet" about it. I wish I could just "come out" to everyone in my family and say I suffer from depression and yeah of course it SUCKS!

The idea of blogging about it scares me. Somehow although you don't know me and I don't know you I feel "revealed". So this is my coming out platform. Until next.